Eleven days after I buried my wife, my children used her will to push me out of the house we had built together. By April, I was limping through twelve-hour night shifts as a security guard, buying markdown bread at Metro and pretending I still recognized my own life. Then an old woman in a camel coat looked at my face in the baking aisle, went completely still, and asked, “Are you Raymond Gagnon’s son?” When I said yes, she gripped her cane and whispered, “I’ve been trying to find your family for fifty-three years.”
The morning my wife died, I told myself there was a limit to how much a man could lose in one season. I believed that because I needed to believe something. Clare died on a Tuesday in February, the kind of Ontario morning that looked as though the sky had been rubbed over with…
